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I\u2019m no expert at emotional vulnerability
other than chronically wearing my heart on my sleeve,
or face,
or neck.
Big red blotches of emotion
betray me.
Sometimes even when I feel completely in control
they appear
and whisper my secrets. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I cried twice
in front of the boy that I like,
that I like so much.
Like so much that I feel like I\u2019m drifting
away
in the current.
Hot, sticky, emotional tears.
Horrible, betraying blotches of emotion. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I cried today at work
over the most trivial thing.
Loud, desperate, desolate tears.
I hid my face.
I wiped away my mascara
But the red, blotchy evidence
remains.
I cried today at work over the most trivial thing. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sharon Paine July 2013<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I\u2019m no expert at emotional vulnerability other than chronically wearing my heart on my sleeve, or face, or neck. Big red blotches of emotion betray me. Sometimes even when I feel completely in control they appear and whisper my secrets. I cried twice in front of the boy that I like, that I like so much. Like so much that I feel like I\u2019m drifting away in the current. Hot, sticky, emotional tears. Horrible, betraying blotches of emotion. I cried today at work over the most trivial thing. Loud, desperate, desolate tears. I hid my face. I wiped away my mascara But the red, blotchy evidence remains. I cried today at work over the most trivial thing. 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